It is hard to express in words the loss of someone so close….the loss of a “baby sister”.
As the oldest, I have always felt that it was my responsibility to protect my siblings….especially my sister who was the youngest.
I felt responsible the weekend she died. I wanted her to spend time with her boyfriend….Afterall I said “Tell her Big Sis says it’s her turn”!
I know that either way….it would have been her time. The “good” is that we were the closest. God knew that I could handle it….that I could look upon my Baby Sis immediately after the crash that took her life.
For me…and my husband…the time we spent with my sis in the hospital morgue was precious….I did not see anything but my beautiful sister….when I kissed her forehead, I heard her laugh….I felt her hug!
Life will never be the same. There is a huge gaping hole…..there are more connections….more precious people in our lives now thanks to her.
I ache for all who have suddenly lost a loved one! It is overwhelming….it is unbelievable….we are in shock.
There has been no preparation….no set up….we are jolted into a sudden, new reality!
I know that my Sis is in a beautiful space…that she is in Heaven with the Angels now looking down upon us!