I find myself in a strange place….a strange plane of existence…..I am here…my husband and son….my brothers and their wives….our parents…
Absent is my sister’s voice…her laugh…her direct impact on all those around.
I reach for my phone….no use! I cannot call her…..she cannot answer…I can look to the sky….I can close my eyes and feel her presence!
No longer present in the physical realm. Yet….we left behind can only reach out and touch physically!
I want to talk with my sis….I want to give her a huge hug….to tell her again that I love her!
I can only close my eyes and see in my minds eye out last interaction….her laugh….her eyes aglow! Full of life! The hugs and I Love You’s!
Now so strange. I have my wonderful husband and son by my side….yet there is an emptiness that will not be filled….that part of me that was lost when you were taken from us!
I know I am going through the “normal” cycle of grief. I bet though….no one considers themselves “normal” when working through the new reality of life….the reality that our precious loved one is no longer with us in the physical present.
We have the precious memories…the life and events that we shared….we do not have the future.
We look to our faith to keep us together…to join our today and our tomorrow with our loved one that has departed!