I SO wish that life was easier! I enjoyed the past when I could count on all family and friends….we enjoyed teasing each other….laughing as if there were no tomorrow!
Now I know the painful truth…I know the loss of a loved one….the sudden, tragic loss of a precious life!
My Baby Sis! She was just starting to experience the prime of life! A recent graduate of the U of O Law School (first in her class!)….enjoying life with the Love of her life!!!
The future cut short….I cry…..and scream….
Life is SO frustrating! I so wish my Sis could have her future! The grand tomorrow with her Law Firm and her Partner!
I sit here…struggling…dealing with the pain of my reality. I wish that I could somehow hold a candle to my Baby Sis!
I struggle with the incapacitating pain of Fibromyalgia, Polyarthralgia, and yet to be determined diagnosis!
I would trade….knowing her impact on all those around her! I do feel guilt as the big Sis who was supposed to protect.
A horrific overflow of emotions! I want my Sis! I miss my Sis! I feel responsible!