There is no end to the overwhelming pain
Coursing through the body….
Every cell seems to be revolting
There is no sense to the chaos within.
Medicine has no answers
No true understanding as to why
No knowledge of the cause
Many that still do not believe in our Hidden Illness.
Outward appearances defy our reality
Our bodies hide the truth
Inside we feel the sharp stabs of the dagger
The ice picks that pierce
The incessant fire that burns
The throbbing head
The overwhelming fatigue
The loss of words…..of being able express oneself
The loss of independence
Having to watch your child(ren) through the window
Struggling to prepare a simple meal
Hands and fingers crippled with pain
The slow methodic walk down the hallway
Each wall has become a walking aid
Creepy crawlies under the skin
Living in a daze….like a thick veil covering our eyes
The sense of loss
The grief of losing yesterday
Today and tomorrow forever changed
Each day presents itself differently
Never knowing the type or intensity of the onslaught…
This is my reality
My body has become my prison.