Embracing life with chronic pain.

“Falling”

“Falling”….the word itself conjures many images….from incidents in our past to what we have seen.  If we add an additional layer….say chronic pain from Fibromyalgia/Polyarthralgia/Chronic Pain Disorder or the like, our minds race to other images….to reliving terrifying experiences!

It brings to mind stepping out of the pickup….to find myself sitting/laying in the snow….wondering how I got there!  Walking into the kitchen…..to find myself sprawled on the floor with our dog by my side…..realizing that my lower back, elbows and head were hurting!  Or…most recently….getting up from bed in the middle of the night to slowly amble to the bathroom…..only to find myself in a crumpled heap near the bathroom door!

“Falling” brings other revelations to light….the “side effects” that come from our hidden illnesses….the bruises….the headaches….the pulled muscles…..the broken bones…..all of which add another level of pain to that which we endure…..each and every day….day in and day out…

The worst part?  The one dreaded word that has not yet been mentioned……that being fear!  Fear from the realization of how close my head came to the counter in relation to where I found myself on the floor…..the fear of walking too close to the stairs…..the fear that shakes our confidence in what small amount of independence we might be have.

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