I had the BEST thought…something I knew would be important for others struggling with Fibromyalgia/Polyarthralgia/Chronic Pain Disorder/IBS and the like……
Hello “Fibro Fog”!!!! I have no idea what my “brilliant” thought was! LOL I am now lost….lost in the quagmire that is my mind…..as if quicksand sucks the thoughts before they solidify!
This is the everyday frustration of those of us suffering from these chronic illnesses/conditions…..
We are trapped…NOT just by our bodies and the variety of symptoms that accost us on a day to day basis……..we are also dealing with our MINDS…..our very thoughts are taken from us before we can fully understand them!
I cannot tell you how many times I will make the same statement….or ask the same question of our son! Thankfully….he is extremely patient! He understands that “Mom is sick!” He will just roll his eyes…..smile and make a face…..then say, “it’s okay Mom.”
No matter what I do…I cannot recall my thought…..the thought that would help others like me! I am just left with the frustration……and am forced to just smile! After all….this is the #1 issue that those dealing with Fibro and associated illness/conditions must realize….
We will be faced with SO many times……the many times that our minds “give out” on us! When we are left to feel like we are “losing it!” LOL
Take a deep breath! You are NOT losing it! I know….I am here….I have “lost it”! I know that it is impossible to remember what just came to mind….that we will not be able to retain a thought….even if it is just a few steps to our notebook, iPhone, iPad, or the like….
You and I are trapped! We are caught in a vicious cycle that our conditions have directed. Yet…I know…somehow….this cycle will be broken! There will come a day that I will be able to remember a thought after taking 5 steps….or after simply turning around…
I chose to believe that God has chosen me….for some strange reason….obviously He knows more than I……
He believes that I am up to this test!
Yet…I know….that only with God’s help will I make it through this!