Posts tagged ‘chronic pain’
It is now 3 1/2 weeks post pain pump surgery! I have been amazed at how fast my body is healing. I have also been amazed at how quickly the swelling in my lower tummy went away. The butterfly bandages that the pain specialist placed over my surgical areas are still in place. I have noticed just a slight loosening of a couple of them on my tummy. No worries…supposed to let them fall off when they get loose.
I let my body dictate my actions. Let myself sleep in as long as I need….some mornings I am awake at 5…sometimes 6…I try to get up before 7. I am making an effort to walk about the house a couple times a day…goal of 2-3 minutes…resting for an hour afterwards. A nap in the afternoon is still a must! I find that I am sleeping for 2-3 hours…very solid and hard sleep.
I still have to give in and go to bed between 7:30 and 8 PM…to just lie down with pillow under my legs. I take advantage of this quiet time to read or work a puzzle. This down time has worked well to allow me to fall off into a good hard sleep.
We have definitely set what I think is the perfect balance of the pain pump and my current oral medication levels. When I go back in (in about 1 1/2 weeks), my doctor will again increase the pain pump level so we can continue to cut back the oral meds.
This is such an exciting time! It is SO awesome to be working toward a goal…an achievable goal! It is SO rare for those of us with chronic pain from Fibromyalgia or the like to actually be able to be in this situation!!
Now don’t get me wrong…I fully realize the path that is forming in front of me will be a long and arduous one. I know it will be years to regain some muscle…as all muscle is gone for having been homebound for so long. Even with this realization, my excitement is not diminished!
Below the surface
Threatening to erupt
The inevitable struggle
Whether recognized or not…
Why is there such stigma
An artificial wall per se
Associated with our feelings
That cause me to hide…
For some emotions are friends
The ability to interact
To easily express
I think you have a special gift…
To me the intensity
The incredible raw power
Harnessed within its grasp
I would rather not feel…
I channel in pieces
The emotions that
Are churning within…
I could not help but smile and find myself in awe while watching our pup experience her first full day of warm sunshine.
Watching her reaction to the first flying bug, ears perked and swatting at it with her paw. Then a dried leaf tumbles by, distracting her…as she chases after it…quickly running back to me with her “prize”!
Our lab runs by with their sock…off for a game of tug-a-war…just to be interrupted by the distraction of a bird landing in a tree. Our pup looking up…as if trying to figure out how to get up the tree.
Watching her copy the actions of our lab…he jumps over a rock….although hesitant, she attempts the same! She makes it…even though her landing is not the best! LOL
Soon she will be more coordinated…and her reactions to all that go on around will not be met with such wonder and curiosity…for now she is reminding me of all the miracles that surround us on a daily basis!