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Shocks

From out of nowhere

The jolts begin…

As if plugged

Into an outlet…

Sudden electric shocks

Racing like strong currents…

Followed by the unnerving sensation

Falling, as if from high atop a cliff…

Thankful the legs are not involved

At least not at the moment…

Just the entire upper body

Twitching and jerking…

Which way is up?

Body reeling…

Best to curl up

Have walker close at hand…

Falling without moving

With electric current snaking…

No nerve left alone

At random, combinations charged…

How long will it last?

Duration is unknown…

Sometimes hours

Sometimes weeks…

Must lay low

Homebound for sure…

Fear

It is present

It is on the fringe…

New symptoms

Rear their head…

Isolated and alone

We pray to our Heavenly Father…

Our body

Becomes a prison…

Trembling and tingling

Unsteadiness abound…

At that time

Fear grows…

Reading scripture

Quiet whispered prayers…

Looking out the window

The distraction of falling leaves…

For a moment

The world is still…

Then thoughts swirl

Eyes cannot focus…

There is a quiet calm

Fear has receded…

The symptoms still strong

Courage now a soft blanket…

Give Yourself a Break

It has been a long time…a very long time since I have given myself permission to remain in my pajamas for the day. Yet that is exactly what I did this morning!

The electric shocks continue to course through my body…my ears are ringing so loudly! Still! The oversensitivity of my chest is SO overwhelming! Words cannot express the pain that is permeating throughout my entire body…coursing through…causing waves of nausea.

Oh the joy of living with Fibromyalgia/Polyarthralgia/Chronic Pain Disorder/and the like!

I am doing what is SO difficult for each of us…I am giving myself a break!  My symptoms are in control now…however, this is temporary!  It may be tomorrow…the day after…or next week…it will come though!

I will awake one day soon with the notable absence of these terrifying shocks…the incredible “out of body” feeling…the deafening, high pitched screaming in my ears…

My only focus today…is rest…do not feel obligated…enjoy the comfort of pajamas…of a warm fire on a cold day…

Electric Shocks

imagesFrom out of nowhere

It strikes…

Coursing throughout

My body…

So hard to describe

The zapping…the tingling…

The overwhelming inability

To have any control…

Sensations flooding

My brain…

As if I am connected

Directly to a power outlet…

Attempts to close my eyes

Increase the disorientation…

My head is reeling

It is spinning as if not connected…

Resting as best as possible

Not knowing how long…

Will these electric shocks

Go away sooner…or later?

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