I had the pleasure of having visitors yesterday. Being primarily homebound, it truly brightens my day! It provides contact when we are on the sidelines…it is a blessing to be taken out of the day-to-day normal.
During our conversation we talked about how school was going for our kids, they shared their struggles as families to adjust to the new schedules which now include sports activities, practice, homework. Observing their dedication as wives and mothers, I was struck by a powerful thought…”Do they realize how blessed they are?”
I sat listening…mesmerized by thoughts of going to a HS Football game, driving kids to various activities, preparing family meals. It was like a movie playing out those words as images flew past…again the powerful thought…”Do they realize how blessed they are?”
My brain has been so very thick with brain fog or Fibro Fog that it is next to impossible to put words to my thoughts. It has been a huge challenge to speak…but I could not ignore the seed that had been planted.
I am compelled to share some of these blessings:
- Having more than one child. (Do not take this wrong…being a parent of an only child is a huge blessing also!)
- Driving your children to activities. (It is truly amazing to be able to get into your car and go! No day before and day of resting and naps to have enough stamina…not to mention the required ability to focus.)
- Preparing family meals. (This act takes SO much energy…only the simplest of meals is made in our household…and that is after hours of rest.)
- Attending after school activities like a HS Football game. (This is a dream…to be able to drive to the game…to walk to the bleachers…to sit and cheer.)
What can appear to us as routine, mundane or hectic is often a blessing in disguise. It can take losing one’s health to fully realize the every day blessings that surround us.
The beauty of the early morning sky! Good Morning, Moon!
Walls so familiar
Known by touch
As they prevent a fall
Become prison like
When confined for length of time…
There is safety here
As it cannot prevent dizziness
The hand holds are a comfort
To catch and to prevent harm…
Through a thick veil of fog
I shuffle to my chair
Sunshine brightens the room…
The warmth of the rays
Reaching through the window
Allow my mind’s eye
To envision the shore…
I hear the water
In the fast flowing stream
Rushing past, racing ahead
Free and untethered…
Wave upon wave has hit
Driving my backwards
The sun offers hope
Its warmth reassurance
As I slowly move ahead…
A knock on the door
The bright smile of a friend
The exchange of hugs
To sit and talk
The walls dissolve…
No longer a prison
The walls provide safety
To allow much needed rest
To help increase strength
Mindset is recharged
Embracing the colors
The small buds on the trees
The retreating snow
A body at peace…
For many of us, the excitement in the day is a visitor at the door or the chance to go for a ride in the car…exhausting as either of these events can be. It is an opportunity to connect with the outside world….the world that we only see via computer, TV, or reading….
We see the world outside the window….we might even be able to step out onto the deck or porch to sit for a short while…to feel the fresh breeze on our skin….to feel the warmth of the sun….
On some days we may not be able to walk farther than the restroom or the couch…we are forced to rest….to lightly stretch…to attempt to engage our minds somehow….
This past year and a half, especially, has really been an eye opener for me. I had always pushed myself….doing as much as possible…no matter how much pain I was experiencing….yet I have found a blessing in being forced to be homebound.
It has opened my eyes to be more sensitive to others….to appreciate those that take the time to stop by and “check in”….to treasure the opportunities to sit outside or go for a ride…I understand the increased pain or symptoms brought by these.
I see the importance of visiting those that are homebound or shut-ins…a ministry that is often neglected….not intentionally of course….just not on the forefront…
I have a strong desire to become involved to help others experiencing this….I don’t yet know how….at this point I can only encourage those that do stop in…to let them know how important their visit is…
I hope to regain enough strength….to regain my ability to focus….to not suffer so badly from Fibro Fog so that I can offer to visit others…(this is my dream….a lofty goal).
A recent visit from some dear friends expressed the importance of those of us that are living at home….separated from the world…our health preventing us from physically participating with others.
It is hard to explain what it is like to those can easily walk out of their homes to hop a bus…to walk…or to get into a vehicle and head off to a destination without thought.
For those of us…like myself…the idea of a ride in the car is the highlight of day! Even though we know that we will be worn out…that it will take a toll…
I know that the hardest part for me has been the separation from people….the fact that the only interaction is my hubby and son…not that this is bad…it is just not normal! Just think! Think of the number of coworkers…friends….you come into contact with on a day to day basis….if they just suddenly disappeared???
I have come to appreciate the weekly visits of some dear friends….while I struggle with the fact that our Church in a neighboring community has not yet been able to find someone willing to bring Communion….
I see there are many opportunities to serve those that are homebound….I feel that God has blessed me with this first hand opportunity…to see the need….as I am one….
I am no where near able to help anyone else….I just hope that those reading this can see how important their “ability” is for those of us that are bound by our physical restraints.
Do not take me wrong…I am thankful for my loving husband and son…for our neighbors and friends….and family that provide help and strength….I am being made much more profoundly aware of others….
Others trapped within the walls of their homes….I worry that they do not have the support system that I have….that they are yearning to talk to someone….