When I got home and was able to enjoy my first shower since my pain pump surgery, I had a few things come to mind.
If you are lucky like me, you have a walk-in, handicap shower (complete with the extra support bars…inside and out…as well as a seat or bench and floor mat). If you do not, or have not purchased some safety items (like a seat and added handrails)….do so before attempting a shower! Otherwise, you will need to have someone there to assist you.
Plan to take your time…there is no need to rush any step! And set a simple goal, like washing your hair or shaving your underarms (if applicable). Just the feel of the water is a huge boost for having only sponge baths for two or so weeks!!
Have your comfy clothes laid out to put on…and rest afterwards. A lot of energy is used in the shower…not to mention all the energy used going to the doctor appointment earlier in the day.
Don’t worry about any “finishing touches” (like lotion)…the only item I suggest is deodorant to complete the endeavor. For many of us, the dry skin can be driving you crazy! Just remember…there will be time after a nap to put some lotion on your arms!
What a huge accomplishment for the day… now sit back and relax!
The side of chronic pain that is difficult to talk about…to me it is also the hardest to admit! It is the darkness that is lurking at the corner of my mind…forever watching and waiting for the chance to pounce…to take over.
It wants to rob us of our relationships…our confidence…our strength…our faith…
This dark shadow that we sometimes view in the mirror looking back at us can have many names…depression, despair, failure, guilt.
It is that dark negativity that threatens to suck the very life out of us…to disrupt any hope of regaining a sense of normalcy…to destroy our relationships.
It happens to each of us…whether we want to admit it or not. It will attack over and over…always at a time that we are mentally weak. Those times when we are in the midst of a flare…when we have not been sleeping…when brain fog is at its thickest…when are finances are stretched to the limit…when our closest relationships are tested, tried and hanging by a thread…
Inevitably it will overwhelm us…it will muddle our thinking…it will suck us down into the darkest depths…it will overtake who we are…
Do NOT allow these times to dictate who you are! We are human…we are going to spend time in the dark…however, this is only temporary. It will NOT last! It does not mean that we have lost our faith…that we have given up the fight…that our closest relationships are forever broken…
It is at this time that we hit bottom…we cry out in the depths of our despair…begging God to help…to have mercy…to forgive us…to strengthen us…
We then rise to the surface from the depths of the darkness…to once again find our inner strength…to embrace those close relationships…to acknowledge and accept our new selves…
This can be misconstrued…
The statement “God Is Good.”
God is beyond the human definition
Of “Virtuous, Right, Kind, Benevolent.”
Yet he is those things and more.
The Alpha and Omega
Truly…the beginning and the end.
Through prayer and study
We open ourselves to His workings,
We learn to listen to His Will
By the quiet voice
Of the Holy Ghost
Who dwells within us.
As we still our busy minds
Take time to focus
To earnestly listen.
Our Heaven Father is present
He is always watching.
It is up to us
To choose His path
To share His love and compassion.
By choosing to follow
His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ,
We are reminded
God is good.
We see this
In the actions of others,
Through the power of prayers
Those answered and those unanswered.
With faith we press forward
We diligently seek ways to serve,
To share our hope,
And our many blessings
From our Heavenly Father above.
The shadow on the mountain is not from the clouds….it is a temporary blemish caused by fire. This “blemish” will give way to fresh growth with the first rain…
So much like life! We go through trials and tribulations…sometimes feeling like we are fighting and scraping against massive storms…
Yet our struggles will give way…just as the burned ground will yield new growth…
Those of us with Fibromyalgia typically have other issues…we may have concurrent issues or a history of conditions…the main thread connecting us all….is our Fibro connection…
I have dealt with a convoluted and complex health history….causing specialist after specialist to just look at me with pain and sincere concern in their eyes..nothing they can do! Wishing that they had more….
I know many of you have dealt with similar situations!
Fibromyalgia is overwhelming….yes…it is “supposed” to be a nerve related condition…yet, it deprives us of sleep….it restricts our ability to move and to interact…then add any type of stress and we are open for attack!
The first of this month (May) brought the first anniversary of my Sister’s death….dealing with that and her upcoming birthday…..stress enough! Then add the nasty head cold that my weakened condition embraced. (My Hubby tried so hard to not share the crud!!)
My condition spiraled out of condition! Being so further weakened by the nasty crud while still reeling from the anniversary of the loss off my baby sis….you can only imagine…my weakened system further succumbed!
I am no dealing with a urinary tract infection….my Fibro is flaring…no hope in sight! LOL
This is hidden truth of those of us with hidden conditions/illnesses such as Fibro! We appear healthy on the outside….yet our insides are in an immense struggle! Add stress and the exposure to illness….and we are then taken hostage!
I have read that Fibro is nerve related and not implicated in any way with our immune systems….yet the truth is…Fibro may be nerve related…yet…its impacts are beyond our nerves….due to the lack of sleep…the continuous pain….the numbness/tingling and so many other issues…wear us down! This makes us susceptible to illness…
Add illness on top of Fibro (plus whatever other concurrent ailments we are dealing with….like Lupus, Arthritis, etc.)….we are further weakened for other infections….
All of which further flare our Fibro symptoms…..not to mention the fact that having Fibro and all of the associated illnesses/conditions hamper our ability to recuperate….
It can make one just want to scream!!!!
I survived the tooth extraction! LOL I was so nervous about it! It is crazy how nervous I get when it comes to going to the dentist! The fractured root actually made the extraction quite easy and fast…..the longest part was the dentist cleaning out the remaining infected gum…he also drained the “boil” (swelling along the outside of my jaw)….
My wonderful hubby filled my prescription for pain meds……and picked up yogurt and eggs so that I can enjoy soft foods for the next couple of days…..
I normally do not take pain meds….but I have learned to listen to doctor’s orders…and I will take the pain meds for the initial time period once home….
It is crazy how pain from a tooth can inflict SO much discomfort when I am all ready SO accustomed to so much pain on a daily basis.
Well….the injections are starting to wear off….and I am feeling my jaw! Sore and achy!!! LOL
Now time to sign off….to relax…use the ice packs throughout the rest of the day to help with the anticipated swelling and bruising.
Yes! Went to the specialist today to find out that my molar (that had all ready been crowned and had a root canal) that has been bothering me since I ground my teeth hard and clamped down hard causing my tooth and jaw pain….followed by the swelling….is in reality a fractured root!
The dentist I saw last week had hoped that the specialist would review x-ray, perform exam and determine that he could re-do the root canal….but not so lucky!
So tomorrow I go in to have the tooth extracted…..
I am glad that this will finally be taken care of….yet I will be forced to make another decision! How to deal with the missing tooth?!?!?!
I asked the specialists some questions….and have been doing further research……will have more questions in the near future.
I am hesitant to have an implant….as I am usually the “1 – 3%” that have issues! After all……I have been in that “unique” category ALL my life…with some exceptions…..yes…in those cases….I am “completely unique”…with “no one else ever recorded” in my predicament…..
Looks like I am in for another twist! All the while my nervousness of this step is aggravating my Fibromyalgia/Polyarthralgia/Chronic Pain Disorder and IBS!