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The sudden death of my sister has been overwhelming!  My parents and brothers would completely agree!  I can only attempt to share her life by posting a “tatoo”on my truck!  

I hope that ALL that see this….stop to remember…..everyone that is close to him/her!  To know that family and friends are NOT to be taken for granted!  We do NOT know how much time we are gifted!



The wonderful sight that close friends of my Sis and I enjoyed Saturday night!  

We had the most awesome time celebrating and honoring my Baby Sis, Carrie!  

The laughter….the tears…the memories shared!  It was so incredible to see her through their eyes!

My heart is more at peace….although there is a huge hole!  This weekend allowed me the chance to see my Sis…..to feel her….to experience her presence….through those wonderful, precious women that were with me!

It is hard to express!  All I can say…is…WOW!

And…thank you!  Lord, thank you, for sharing my Sis!

I love you, Carrie!  I am so proud of you and all you achieved!  Most of all though, I am blown away with the way you were able to so positively impact everyone you came in contact with!

I will love you always and forever! 

Honoring a Loved One

I know I have written about ways to honor a loved one….in my case? I wanted to push for an Endowment in the name of my Sister to the Law School she graduated from.

I felt that the best way to honor her memory and life would be to have a scholarship in her name every year….not just a one time scholarship. 

So I am learning the difference and what it takes to set up an Endowment!  

A scholarship is the easiest of course….whatever funds are given are presented one time. This is a great idea and a very good option!  I just knew that because of all of my sister’s accomplishments it wasn’t the right fit for her!

An Endowment takes more work. There has to be a minimum fund of $25,000 that must be collected within 5 years….it also requires Board approval at the University or College of choice. 

Yes…this means that the annual scholarships might not be as large as a one time scholarship. Therein lies the rub!

It is a decision to not take lightly. Discuss with other family and/or close friends to determine what direction is best. 

Most importantly know that either choice is a fabulous way to celebrate your loved one!


What a beautiful memorial to my sis!  A wonderful sunny day….there was a slight breeze.  

Only a couple of rigs drove by while we were standing and taking this in.  

I wasn’t sure I was ready….so glad that we took the detour!  I am ready to go back….armed with flowers!

Love you, Sis! 


I find myself in a strange place….a strange plane of existence…..I am here…my husband and son….my brothers and their wives….our parents…

Absent is my sister’s voice…her laugh…her direct impact on all those around. 

I reach for my phone….no use!  I cannot call her…..she cannot answer…I can look to the sky….I can close my eyes and feel her presence!

No longer present in the physical realm.  Yet….we left behind can only reach out and touch physically!  

I want to talk with my sis….I want to give her a huge hug….to tell her again that I love her!

I can only close my eyes and see in my minds eye out last interaction….her laugh….her eyes aglow!  Full of life!  The hugs and I Love You’s! 

Now so strange. I have my wonderful husband and son by my side….yet there is an emptiness that will not be filled….that part of me that was lost when you were taken from us!

I know I am going through the “normal” cycle of grief.  I bet though….no one considers themselves “normal” when working through the new reality of life….the reality that our precious loved one is no longer with us in the physical present.  

We have the precious memories…the life and events that we shared….we do not have the future. 

We look to our faith to keep us together…to join our today and our tomorrow with our loved one that has departed!

Carrie Murray

I am so proud of my sister!  She had such an impact on those around her!

Please help me to honor her by viewing the following site!

My Baby Sis….my “CareBear”….impacted people in a wonderful and large way!

There is no better testament….no better way to help those left behind.

Thank you, Sis!

My Heart Is Broken!

My  Baby Sis was killed in a motorcycle vs pick up accident on Sunday!

We were there last night to spend time with her boyfriend…the love of her life….and then to see her…to say our good-byes. 

Nothing in life could have prepared me for this! I always expected that I would go long before she would!

She lived a very full life! Graduating with Honors from John’s Hopkins University…..then year’s later graduating first in her class from University of Oregon Law School!

Yes! She was brilliant! She was loving, fun, full of life!  

My heart aches.,..yet I know that Heaven now has a wonderful, powerful Angel in their midst!

I just wish I could have given her one more hug…one more kiss…one more “I love you”.

Love you, Sis!  Now….and forever….

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