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“Baby Steps”

My Pain Specialist keeps telling me “baby steps”.  I must focus on each day alone…allowing my body to set the pace.  Having a goal (i.e. 4 laps of the house) is good…yet must taper with where body actually is (i.e. 2 laps of house a day).

zcXeXAxgiRemember, each activity that is performed during the day…each one is exercise. These include getting dressed, fixing breakfast, cleaning dishes or just prepping them for dishwasher, feeding dogs, brushing teeth, washing face, shower (when enough strength), letting dogs out, walking lap of house, laundry (non shower days), heating lunch, prepping/making dinner…

Balanced with the necessary breaks — sitting in chair with ice, using ball for feet, laying on the couch, prayer time, reading, watching TV, computer time…

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God placed the perfect image into my mind!  I was taking my first steps…true “baby steps”…my little hands grasping large, strong hands.  My steps erratic and unsure…just driven by instinct to push through.

“Baby steps” are just that! The small steps taken by toddlers not slow paced adult steps! This insight has provided such a sense of calm, as I am further reassured that Heavenly Father is with me, assisting with my chronic health battles.

I azcXeXAxgim no longer viewing my activity level and where I am currently based upon “normal” perspective.  I am not recovering from an injury.  I have permanent health conditions that severely impact my quality of life.

Viewing my situation with this “new normal” in mind has truly lightened my load!

 

Enduring a Flare

Pain is not alone

It has many dark friends

Who seek to completely

Overwhelm and envelope.

Our everyday battle

Our usual “symptoms”

Who accompany us

Occasionally changing intensity.

New symptoms do check in

Take residence to cause change

Often with a few die-hard “friends”

Who never leave our side.

The dreaded “Flare”

Can appear out of nowhere;

It can also be anticipated

When we go out or take a trip.

In any case

The wind is taken from our sails

Our minor victories

Seem to be in the far distant past.

We can fall victim

To depression and frustration

To hopelessness and despair

Or chose to view the rainbow.

The slightest distraction

Can assist in our mental fight

As we nurse our battered body

Through the horrific pain.

Do not be afraid

To lift up our eyes

To beg for a brief respite

To allow ourselves to rest.

Early Dawn

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As a new day dawns

The mountain shines

As if covered with gold.

The early colors

Cast an unearthly hue

To the life around.

The blue of the sky

Pales against

The brilliance of the rock.

All is still

No breath of wind

Silence unbroken.

The Pangs Within

Arms that are throbbing

Stabbing to the fingertips

Sensations coursing through

Overwhelming the muddled mind…

 

Thoughts escaping

Racing to distant places

Thick and fuzzy

As if with a heavy veil…

 

The pain is everywhere

It travels under the skin

It is manifest in every cell

There is no escape…

 

Numbness and burning

Lightheaded and unsure on foot

Each sound penetrates like a knife

The brightness of the light is piercing…

 

From deep within lies strength

A power gifted from above

To endure and to stand tall

To remain steadfast and unshaken…

 

The sensations coursing

Reeling with unsteady gait

My mind again lost

Coherent thought is not allowed…

 

 

Outward appearance shows nothing

The only hint a slight grimace

Hidden from view

As war is waged within…

 

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